[Strange Fruit]

givemeanewspine:

I wish I knew for sure that the very next time I fall in love, it will be crazy intense. 

I hope it’s all consuming and beautiful in ways my poetry may or may not be able to capture.

I hope that it’s deep, deep, deep and bottomless and roofless and colossal and extraordinarily grand.

I hope that it challenges me in ways I’ve never been challenged before….and all for the better…

I hope that it’s honest and pure. 

I hope that is spiritually satisfying.

I hope it makes me cry out of pure gratefulness.

I hope God uses the beauty of it to humble me even more.

I hope God is preparing me internally before it comes…I need a safe, mature place to hold a love like this.

…..I feel like He’s preparing me and some days I mix that up with loneliness. I hope He knows that I don’t mean to.